Alone but not lonely

    Back then I always thought I needed people to know what happiness or what love felt like. I always depended on others for that. Why? I was scared that if I ain’t have people in my life I wouldn’t be happy or loved. I was always afraid of losing people really and I tried everything I could to make sure people didn’t leave me. But they still left. Growing up I was always kind hearted person, I always made sure to have a good heart and to don’t let no one take that from me. It was the way I grew up. But you see there’s pros and cons of that. I learned that having a good heart, a lot people will take advantage of that.

    Sometimes family and friends only needed me when they wanted something from me. It took so much time for me to focus on myself, but once i did that. I felt the most accomplished I’ve ever been in my life. I developed a relationship with myself to make sure I would never feel alone anymore. To make sure I wouldn’t need to call on others for my happiness. Sometimes to build a relationship with yourself, you might have to cut off the world. But it’s not like you turning your back on people. You’re just trying to better yourself and if they get mad at you for that. Then that’s when the true colors start showing. 

   People can’t be mad at you for you trying to better yourself and for those who are mad are only mad at the fact that you’re doing way more than what they’re doing in life. So what they will try to do is break you. Those people will make you fall and crumble so you can be back at the same level as them. Sometimes it will be the closest one’s around you. But whatever they do, don’t let them break you down. 

   If you’re struggling with trying to love or appreciating yourself. You’re not alone. Just start thinking more highly of yourself. Building a relationship with yourself is far more important than any other relationship in life. Why? Because you’re with yourself 24 hours in a day. You are the most important person in your life. Not only will your mentality strengthen with self love but you will always be more appreciative of things. Your bad days are other people good days. Remember that.

   So forget about what people think about you. Don’t feel scared to fly. You’re the only one capable of what can happen to your life. You don’t need others to feel special because you’re special. Continue to spark that fire in you so the world can see how bright you shine. 

 Thank you for taking the time to read my stuff. I appreciate you a ton for that. Love yourself.