Weathering The Storm

I always questioned life back then. Questioned God like why am I in this position? That’s how miserable life was for me. It was so bad that I contemplated on taking my life a few times. But I thank God I didn’t. I realize you’re put into these difficult situations to either learn from it or to grow from it. I was so young dealing with the world on my shoulders. See I didn’t grow up in the best situations but I learned to make the best out of every situation. Growing up sometimes it was a bit difficult I’m not even going to lie. I remember those cold winter nights with no heat and no hot water. But I didn’t complain about it because we just continued to adjust to it. It was even so cold sometimes that we had to turn on the oven and the burners on the stove for the house to heat up. See I experienced so much at a young age that  I thought that type of lifestyle was normal. 

This one time the power got turned off for a while. But my family made the best out of it. My older siblings bought coolers and ice to store food in. They bought a bunch of candles for light when it was night time. We played games together and basically bonded as a family. Those moments were priceless and I wouldn’t have it any different. That was when I was a kid though and I thought those days were over but somehow it continue on when I got older. I didn’t complain though. I knew my mom worked her ass off so I did what my older siblings did back then. Made sure my mom sister and little brother was always straight. Made sure they had candles and supplies. That there was food in there stomachs. There’s isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for my family.

Only a few could relate to them stories. That why I’m grateful for anything and everything I have. I always wish I grew up in a wealthy lifestyle, but that wasn’t the case. Instead I was taught and shown how to get it from the muscle. All those cold and hungry nights I experienced I knew would go away sooner or later. I knew there was a beauty within that struggle. That type of lifestyle I grew up in helped me carried myself to always be grateful and thankful. To never act like I’m better than a person because of what I have or the amount of money in my pocket. I know what it felt like to be broke so there’s no reason for me to brag. Remain humble until your time comes was always the mindset for me. 

Those of you may be fighting your biggest battles right now. You may even feel like your  losing that battle. But trust me, never give up on yourself. I always felt like I was useless in this world. Until I had friends telling me how inspirational I was. Telling me how much they look up to me and how they admire me for continuing life even after all the bullshit life threw at me. You might have someone right now who’s looking up or depending on you to keep going. You have people who love you. People who care for you. Don’t let them down. Don’t let yourself down. They say God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers and in the end that battle you’ve been fighting for so long will be worth it all. That storm isn’t going to last forever and that sun will shine again.  

  

If you’re still rocking with me at this point. You loved and support doesn’t go unnoticed and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.