Neva Fold

    Sometimes we stress ourselves too much with problems we can’t control. We put way too much unnecessary weight on top of our shoulders. Sometimes we care too much. Or worry too much. We think so much that at some point we make ourselves feel less of a person because of our fuck ups. But once you learn there’s only so much you can do. There’s only so much shit you can control in your life. You have to realize that in order to grow, you have to let that shit go. In order to reach for that future, let go of that past thats weighing you down. Stop living for others expectations. Start living for you.

    Past few months life been really just ups and downs. Highs and lows. Lately I’ve been really unhealthy. Unhappy with myself. No one else’s fault but me. I keep being mad at myself for it. But there’s no point of doing that if you aren’t going to do anything about the situation. You control your journey. You are the author of your story. You have the ability to make the chapter a good one, a bad one, or a learning one. Nothing will change if you don’t make the change. Everything starts and ends with you. 

      For my people struggling with this mental health battle, this life battle. It’s going to be okay. Not saying it just to say it. I know it. We hear that shit a lot. We just have to keep going. Put your head down and keep working. World ain’t stopping for anyone. That pain you got in you is not going to last forever. Keep going. Because if no one ain’t tell you yet. I am proud of you. Sometimes all we want is appreciation. Some love. Some acknowledgement. I see how hard you’re working on yourself. Even if no one see it or tell you. I am proud of you. This life shit is not easy at all. But that’s the beauty of it. Sometimes it’s really shitty that most of us go through way more than others. But that’s what builds us. That’s what make us. Pain build character. Turn that pain into hustle. We are a different breed remember that. 

     One thing about life though is that we will always continue to learn and grow. No matter the age. No matter how bad we fuck up sometimes. We will always have that chance to learn and grow from it. Never too late to fix your mistakes. You would only ever be a failure if you never go back and try again. Don’t quit don’t give in. Life is all about the highs and lows. Think of it like a lifeline. You want That shit to always going up and down. But when it stays in the middle, what’s does that mean? Exactly. We need the lows in life. No matter how low that shit can get, you will always get back to that top. 

     Keep fighting. Keep believing. Best believe you’re doing great. Remember Slow motion is better than no motion. Without struggle there’s no progress. And only the strongest survives in this game called life.

To My Heart

     My reason I stay afloat. The reason I continue to wake up and go hard everyday. My best friend. Thank you for being my safe place. My home. The reason my head is above the waters. You may not think I see the effort you put into us. But I see every little thing you do for me. Whether it’s making sure I eat to always asking if I’m okay. This letter is for you. To always say thank you for being my other half. Even when sometimes the world may be falling apart. You help keep it together. You help me keep me sane in this place of agony. 

      You have really been the safest place for me to become a man that I never thought I could be. You took a chance on the kid and that’s something I can’t thank you enough for. One of the greatest gift that god has ever given me. Thank you for not giving up on me when I was at my lowest. For always picking me up for all the times I’ve fallen. Life be whopping my ass a lot. So many times I just wanted to leave this place. Every time life would seem to be going good, there’s always come bs to come along with it. It’s annoying trying to be happy when it seem like the world is against you. But you showed me that I won’t ever have to fight my battles alone. You gave me the light to continue on that journey. 

     But for you. I know there’s day you feel as if you’re not good enough or you’re not where you wanna be yet. But I’m here to tell you I am so proud of you for being where you are right now. You have overcome more than you know. So much hard work and dedication that you don’t credit yourself for. You made it. And you will continue to make it remember that. Stop being hard on yourself. I know you want to be great and it will come. Be patient. Keep working. Keep being great. I will forever have your back just like you have mines. 

      As we continue to grow in ourselves and our relationship. I value every little thing about you. I’ve gone through a lot of relationships where it was past ones, friends or even family. When I say you’re my best friend. That’s literally what you are. Also my business partner and stink. But I know if things go left you will always be on my right to hold me down. Thank you. 

   To my folks reading this letter. If you’re in a relationship send this to that person you love. A lot of people take their relationship for granted. I see some people work their ass off for someone to give them a chance. But once they get that chance they don’t put that same effort or love into the relationship as before. Sometimes one person is putting in more effort than the other. Don’t lose something great because of your selfish acts. Yes self love is key but not if you’re doing it wrong. Value that person you love or someone else will. Your significant other is your most important person in your life other than yourself. A relationship takes 2 people. So don’t forget to love them. To cherish every moment you can. And to appreciate them every chance you get. But to my people who feel like you’re aren’t receiving the same love you get. Sad to say but it’s time to say goodbye to that chapter. Don’t let that toxicity into your life. Know your worth before it hurts you.